hour_of_the_fox

irl I go by quinn bc quinn is a perfect name for a gender fluid person like myself, as it's perfectly not male or female, it can be used as either. 

question: when NF's songs become relatable does that mean your depressed? I honestly wanna know pls send me answer, cuz if so I'm depressed (tell me something I dunno lol)

I miss being an admin in coffee house...

 I'm bisexual and my fav colors are red, blue and purple in that order. i usually hate rp but I still do it anyway... 

I relate to last resort by papa roach, GFY by blackbear and MGK, and Time to pretend by MGMT. as I'm suicidal, I wanna say GFY to some particular exs and I just wanna pretend that I'm ok. 

I love chess, and talking. 

send me notes pls

60 daily games at once is hard. but it's worth it. hopefully...

I'm not any 1 gender. I'm mutipule (kinda like how I don't date any one gender, cuz I'm bi)

josephscrougham: my (kinda)  current lover, stay a while won't ya? I wanna be with you, I wanna have everything we talked abt happen... my fam don't get it... idk anymore... 

@wolfe4321: nice to know that your a faker, wtf? I'm willing to give you 1 more chance don't f up. hm.

@imtrash51: my club's old owner. now alextheutlrakillfan and idk anything else to put...

@isekaimmm: I'm sorry for keeping b.s abt you here it wasn't true and I typed it when I was mad at you, believe me you are worth living, even if I'm not

@rayelynn: is a piece of work, dm me for a little more abt her (I may delete this later..) finally she online, kinda.  I only know so much, shes gone awol. and shes back... shes not dead which is goof 

@thewhitefang2: was the best SA in my club, in my opinion, he keeps the peace. srry he isn't SA anymore  and he f*ing closed. his new acct @the_white_fang_2 needs activation, Chess.com can you let my friend in his acct? thx. also why you gotta start sht with me, I've done nothing but be your friend, I'm not tryna ingore you. but whatever your lil bro cooler anyway... also if you see this fang, I'm sorry, I'm going to be owner of my club again please rejoin... YO CHESS ADMINS if yall see this he still cant activate his acct

my irl brother timmy: is my irl bro... nothing much else except I'm better than him at chess, he's 5'5 110 pounds which makes him bigger than me even though he's 4 1/2 years younger. 

@charlesbeat21: my good friend who I'm happy I found. even though I'm never truly happy, and evidently neither is he, what I meant by "found" is I'm happy I met you. you're the rightful owner to my club.  and was owner  my club had gotten to 150 2 times under you, and 160 recentally I could only get it to 130s (now 3 times) I'm going to have to be owner (you will be 2nd in command...) I'm sorry but I needed to be owner again (I alr said that lol...)

I'm @RpM_CouchPoTaTo 's "pookie" I guess lol, only because they really really wanted me to lol

if you need someone to talk/rant to I'm that person, you might not think I mean it but I do. Dm me.

I need a break from my friends... they all too depressed...

I'm online 1/8/24: Happy New Year my account is a year old.

1/9/24: Thx for 900 views so close to 1000

1/22/24 200 followers 1000 views

2/6/24 1100 views 

4/1/24: 1400 views

4/15/24: 1500 views  

5/7/24:1600views

5/11/24: I decided I didn't wanna live in a messed up world, so I decided to use my allergy to fire ant bites to do it. only problem I can't find any XD

also 5/11: I attempted. 

5/14/24: I'm tired of living...

5/16/24:1700 views. I also have royally screwed my life over.

5/21/24: 1800 views and finally above 600 in daily for first time in 3 months also 1500 in puzzles. 

8/11/24: 1900 views.

8/14/24 I'm not gonna die

8/22/24 1600 in puzzles

8/31/24: my clubs a year old: +161 in a year.

1000 views so far this year.

fav band: system of a down. 

fav rappers: either Drake (1st person shooter mode) or Lil Wayne (a milli) ,  Eminem (lose yourself)  BigXdaPlug(Texas) Ayo+teo (Rolex, Last Forever, Fly N Ghetto) Nicki Minaj (starships) cardi B (enough [Miami])  NF (leave me alone, intro III, happy, let you down, my stress, clouds, therapy session, intro II and intro I) MGK (my exs best friend) Blackbear (IDGAF do re me GFY Clown)

fav rocker (other than soad) either MGMT (kids), Beastie Boys (intergalactic), MIA (Paper Planes), Grouplove (tongue-tied), Linkin Park (Friendly Fire)  or Blackbear (Monsters with all time low) Imagine Dragons (eyes closed) X ambassadors (either unsteady or renegades)  Sum41 (landmines) 

fav singer: Halsey (bad at love), Ace of Base (no scrubs), Tove lo (talking body or habits [stay high]) 

3 fav from soad and nste by NF

Yeah, sometimes I wanna disappear like I just don't exist
Or find a time machine and take me back when I was six
Maybe younger, either way, I guess the point of it
Would be to tell that little kid that he's gon' take a lot of hits
Yeah, I'd probably grab your hand and tell you life is hard
If you got questions or you need advice, then talk to God
'Cause He's the only one that listens even when you think He isn't
Even good people are great at making bad decisions (yeah)
They ain't gon' take it serious
You find out pretty quick that life is more than just appearances
I know some things we could avoid to save embarrassment
But everything that breaks you down can also build your character
'Cause people love to see you fail, just be aware of it
Don't let nobody tell you who to be or write your narrative
Look, we're all products of the things that we experience
But there's a big difference between confidence and arrogance
You hearin' this?
I know that you won't get it now, but you gon' get it later
I know that you feel alone and no one loves you maybe
And you gon' cover insecurities with lots of anger
The weird thing is someday all of this will make you famous
You start to write about your life and while they're all relatin'
You'll make up a slogan, call it "Real, " but feel like you're the fakest
Wish I could tell you that you're future's nothing but amazin'
That's just not the case, and I guess I just don't know how to say this
I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just want you to know
You gon' make a lot of mistakes
And they gon' laugh in our face
That's part of life, that's just the way that it goes
(That's just the way that it goes)
And I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just need you to get it
I know you been questionin' life
Trust me, I know what it's like
I'm here for you if you need someone to listen
Do you need someone to listen?
See, mom and dad are not together, they took different routes
But you probably already knew, you gettin' older now
Remember back when mom picked us up from grandma's house?
And she hid her boyfriend in the trunk and drove a couple miles
Down the street and she pulled over to let him out
'Cause she ain't want dad to know she had these type of dudes around
'Cause last time he found out, he had to take us from her
You look uncomfortable, I'm sorry, let me change the subject
You know how we've always struggled with abandonment? (Yeah)
And when we feel like someone's leaving, we start panickin'? (Yeah)
And yo, I wish that I could say I've learned to manage it
You think it's bad now, but you don't know the half of it
Passionate, something we have never lacked
We see it the most when we're writing raps
They think it's funny now, let 'em laugh
I know you think it's just an outlet when you're really mad
But you don't know the platform you're about to have
I know some things about the future you ain't ready for
I know some things that you gon' cover up, but can't ignore
And what hurts is they gon' surface at the worst moments
And we gon' act like it don't hurt us, but it hurts, don't it?
We walk around with the Devil talkin' on both shoulders
Wish I could tell you that he disappears when we get older
But that's just not the case, and I know you feel out of place
And everything is not okay, and life can be a lot to take, but
I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just want you to know
You gon' make a lot of mistakes
And they gon' laugh in our face
That's part of life, that's just the way that it goes
(That's just the way that it goes)
And I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just need you to get it
I know you been questionin' life
Trust me, I know what it's like
I'm here for you if you need someone to listen
Do you need someone to listen?
You know how intoxicated people make us nervous?
To the point sometimes we shake and it feels so disturbin'
Don't be scared, that's just trauma tryna reach the surface
And tell us everyone we love is gonna try to hurt us
Which isn't true, but it's a lie that both of us believe in
Yeah, you might get a glimpse of happiness from your achievements
But what you'll learn as you get older, every time you reach one
Is you'll just make another goal that doesn't lead to freedom
See, some things about to happen that you can't imagine
At twenty-four, you'll drop an album, and you'll call it Mansion
At twenty-five, you'll put out Therapy and gain some traction
Skip to track number four, now that's a really sad one
Yeah, Perception's coming next, we 'bout to reach the masses
It sounds awesome, at the same time, it doesn't matter
At twenty-seven, we'll make millions, but it's really sad 'cause
You'll learn to realize that none of this will make you happy
I wish that I could look at you with empathy
Sometimes I feel like I've become what you were scared to be
Which makes it really hard to look at you with sympathy
'Cause if I'm feeling bad for you, then I have to feel bad for me
And that's just something I feel like we don't deserve
That's why I'm always looking down on you, I know it hurts
I'm sure you have a lot of questions
I've been tryna search to find us both some answers
I'll be here for you if things get worse.

aerials:

Life is a waterfall
We're one in the river
And one again after the fall
Swimming through the void, we hear the word
We lose ourselves, but we find it all
'Cause we are the ones that want to play
Always want to go, but you never want to stay
And we are the ones that want to choose
Always want to play but you never want to lose
Aerials in the sky
When you lose small mind, you free your life
Life is a waterfall
We drink from the river
Then we turn around and put up our walls
Swimming through the void, we hear the word
We lose ourselves, but we find it all
'Cause we are the ones that want to play
Always want to go, but you never want to stay
And we are the ones that want to choose
You always want to play but you never want to lose
Oh
Aerials in the sky
When you lose small mind, you free your life
Aerials, so up high
When you free your eyes, eternal prize
Aerials in the sky
When you lose small mind, you free your life
Aerials, so up high
When you free your eyes, eternal prize

Toxicity

Looking at life through the eyes of a tire hub
Eating seeds as a pastime activity
The toxicity of our city, our city
You, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder? Disorder
Now somewhere between the sacred silence
Sacred silence and sleep
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder
More wood for their fires, loud neighbors
Flashlight reveries caught in the headlights of a truck
Eating seeds as a pastime activity
The toxicity of our city, of our city
You, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder? Disorder
Now somewhere between the sacred silence
Sacred silence and sleep
Somewhere between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder
You, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder?
Now somewhere between the sacred silence
Sacred silence and sleep
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder
When I became the sun
I shone life into the man's hearts
When I became the sun
I shone life into the man's hearts

Chop Suey!

Wake up (wake up) 
Grab a brush and put a little make-up 
Hide the scars to fade away the shake-up  (hide the scars to fade away the-)
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table? 
Here you go create another fable, you wanted to 
Grab a brush and put a little make-up, you wanted to 
Hide the scars to fade away the shake-up, you wanted to 
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table? You wanted to 
I don't think you trust
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die 
Wake up (wake up) 
Grab a brush and put a little make-up 
Hide the scars to fade away the  (hide the scars to fade away the shake-up) 
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table? 
Here you go create another fable, you wanted to 
Grab a brush and put a little make-up, you wanted to "
Hide the scars to fade away the shake-up, you wanted to "
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table? You wanted to "
I don't think you trust
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die 
In my self-righteous suicide 
I cry when angels deserve to die "
Father (father) 
Father (father) "
Father (father) "
Father (father) "

Father, into your hands I commend my spirit 
Father, into your hands "
Why have you for-sake-en. me.
In your eyes for-sak-en me.
In your thoughts for-sak-en me.
In your heart for-saken me, oh
Trust in my self-righteous suicide!
I cry when angels deserve to die!
In my self-righteous suicide!
I cry when angels deserve to die.